Day after whatevvvver

Not too much time for a long and thourough post.  But, just needed to check in to say that I cannot for the life of me make it an entire day without smoking.  I can go extremely long periods without cravings, but there are times that I just have to have one.  Whats worse, is not getting any satisfaction from them and immediately wanting one as soon as you finish it.  From what I've heard, that is just part of the process.  Eventually you will stop craving something that doesnt give you anything in return.  Like, well...none of the comparisons Im thinking of really should be written here, but its a learned behavior to crave nicotine.  Therefore, it must be a learned behavior to not crave it I guess. If there is anyone in this world reading this with some kind of insight, please comment and let me know.  I dont know what the hell I'm doing.  Is it ok, to sneak an occasional unfulfilling smoke?  Or should I fight these cravings like the plague? 

I'm not really feeling the love from my millions of followers and subscribers and commenters.  And that just takes alot of the wind out of my sails when I'm trying to write.  Also, its frustrating that I can't get my blog to be searchable via google.  There are actually a few people who read it, believe it or not and I have no idea how they found it other than me giving them the exact address.  Help?  Suggestions? Feel free to comment, follow, or subscribe.  I think that kinda thing helps spread the word and increase my mass appeal....hahahahaahahaah

have a good weekend blogians!